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6/3/05 05:18 pm

i havent posted in a while... ive go some stuff to talk about but i cant really type it, its kinda hard... but i love grandma, and i hope u get through it :-)

on a happier note:

1. Grab the nearest book.

2. Open the book to page 123.

3. Find the fifth full sentence.

4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.

5. Don't search around for the coolest book you can find. Use what's actually nearest to you.

"One would think that the grandeur of h euniverse would need on assistance from Walter Cronkite."

its from ammusing ourselves to eath by neil postman, and i have toread it for AP english next year, i havent read it yet so i have no clue what its talking about :-)


5/16/05 08:41 pm - Done for the year...

i cant do this anyome... i need to cry... i miss it... i miss you guys...ill update later...

its love that forever keeps it real :-)


5/11/05 08:44 pm

A is for Active
S is for Spectacular
H is for Hilarious
L is for Lovesick
E is for Enjoyable
Y is for Young
B is for Beautiful
O is for Orderly
W is for Wicked
E is for Energetic
N is for Naive

What Does Your Name Mean?

5/11/05 07:28 pm - interview

so here are the rules plain and simple...

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions

I think it gets really messy when people post their answers on their own LJ, so post your answers right in this post. i.e., I'll post 5 questions, and you reply posting your answers.

here are my awnsers to my first interview :-)

1. how did you become interested in israeli dancing? well... it all started last year... when i aws a wee litte nw fresamn to nel... i didnt know much, i was ignorant... but then i heard this anazimg/fun music...and from there it all blosomed into love at first... hearing... its actually a lot b/c os sarah/jess/wendy: last years dance leaders :-) and i actually like israeli dancing for a while before that...

2. what was your first impression of me? o, that... i think its was emilly telling me that u sucked at life and that you were homeschooled o and u live on a farm... but thats besides the point, and i dont judge a person/book by its cover or usually listen to what people tell me about it/them... but what i really thought was that you were an amazing person... and that we can make our love circle w/ israel work... (w/ istanbul) soory if you dont remember that comversation :-)

3. Is that still what you think of me? Well... simply yes :-) all of it and more

4. What's your absolute favorite nel memory? waaaayyy tooooo many to pick from :-)it might be dance seshion... might be sicha... might be other stuff...

5. What's the most random thing you've done in public? when i was really little i was in NYC and we were waiting in line for a speed boat ride w/ our cousins (i was eating ice cream out of one of those baseball helmet things) and a person in the line went into daibetic schock... me being 5 years old, and not knowing what that was, went over to them and and gave them my ice cream, b/c it always made me feel better when i didnt feel well... little did i know that that was exactly what they needed :-) thats about it... i dont do much random stuff in public... a lot

so youve read it... now prepare to be inerviewed (business atire not necessary)


5/10/05 04:12 pm - love...

its just become so clear after a while that i just cant do what i love anymore... sometimes it seems i dont love it :-) but i do,

RDS ill miss you next year...

im so sorry its almost over after wishing for so long that i could just be done with it. But the presure is all gone now, we'll see how i feel after i realize that its really gone...

and KP, i read that thing in your profile:
Somewhere behind the athlete you've become, the hours of practice, the coaches who pushed you, and the fans who cheered for you.. is the little girl that fell in love with the sport.. and never looked back... <3

but i just cant say that anymore :-) i am in love, i was in love, and i still want to be in love with synchro :-) its hard to say that...

Spring boards on friday, cant wait to get my mind off of my real life

im looking forward to the rest of my life :-)

love, ashley

5/3/05 08:36 pm - its really hard

its really hard when you dont know what to feel :-(

especially when you know that you love, but at the moment you arent able to find that love...

im not talkinga bout a person im talking about Synchro...

its just not what it used to be for me, even though i know that it is somewhere...

and its also really hard to explain... does anyone know that feeling--even if it is for something else??

well before about 6:30 today was an amazing day...

I got to paint my table in painting... im very ecited about how its gonna look when its done so its a + whenever i get to work one it, and its relaxing (good for riht before your first ever AP test)

i took the AP world history test, and it was nice, i know i got at least a three... possibly even a four (wait is this illegal to be typing this the same day i took the test??)

then, as i was on the buss on the way back to school my mom called me with amazing news!!! i got a scholarship from the federation for going to israel :-) and it was more than we expected with the ammount of people who aplied for that scholarship fund :-) so guess how much i got... 3,000... Amazing... guess how much i still need... a lot... but thats is still amazing b/c i know that there is enough money for me to go on EIE... that made my day...

then i ate pizza... also good

then i swam laps... hard and fast... it was good to do that... then it got bad... and im not going to explain it becuase it dosent need eplaining now, it was explained as best as it could be explained up top... basically do you think a team could function w/o one of its members (i am NOT implying anything)

please reaply... i really need it now... maybe you can put it into perspective... or happy thoughts... or something encouraging...

plus im comming to buffalo this weekend for a swim meet at willimasville high school on friday, and i dont have to be at the second part of the meet on saturday until 12... so anyone in buffalo wanna meet me somewhere??


thnks to everyone whos always been there for me :-)

4/25/05 06:14 pm

...love this song...

Why couldn’t you have stayed calm, for once! Instead of flying off the handle -- !

I hope you're happy
I hope you're happy now
I hope you're happy how you've
Hurt your cause forever
I hope you think you're clever

I hope you're happy
I hope you're happy too
I hope you're proud how you would
Grovel in submission
To feed your own ambition

So though I can't imagine how
I hope you're happy
Right now

Elphie, listen to me. Just say you're sorry!

You can still be with The Wizard
What you've worked and waited for
You can have all you ever wanted -

I know
But I don't want it - No!
I can't want it anymore

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes
And leap...

It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
And you can't pull me down

Can't I make you understand
You're having delusions of grandeur?

I'm through accepting limits
Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

I'd sooner buy defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

Glinda, come with me. Think of what we could do - together!

Together we're unlimited
Together we'll be the greatest team
There's ever been - Glinda!
Dreams the way we planned 'em

If we work in tandem

There's no fight we cannot win
Just you and I, defying gravity
With you and I defying gravity

They'll never bring us down!

Well, are you coming?

(GLINDA decides to stay behind.)

I hope you're happy
I hope your happy now that your choosing this -

You too--
I hope it brings you bliss

I really hope you get it
And you don't live to regret it
I hope you're happy in the end
I hope you're happy my friend

So if you care to find me
Look to the Western sky!
As someone told me lately
Everyone deserves the chance to fly
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who ground me
Take a message back from me!

Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high, defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!!

I hope you're happy

Look at her
She's wicked
Get her!!

Bring me down!

No one mourns the wicked
So we got to bring her -



4/25/05 05:12 pm - spring break

lets do this is list format... otherwise it will take until next year :-)

~i went to spring kallah... in canada/toronto/missisagua (spelling) wherever/whatever you want to call that place....
~i got home sunday, and i packed for NYC
~i left for NYC on monday :-)
~jet blue is an amazing airline :-)they hae tvs and kosher for passpver snacks which i found out on the way home :-)
~once we got to NYC we ate dinner at Bubba Gumps in times square
~then we walked around and eventually met KATHY!!! and ate cheese cake
~tuesday we went to the museum of natural history with some cousins of ours... then we tried to eat in china town but none of the resturants were open to the public and none of the people the spoke english so they didnt understand that we were trying to ask them if they knew anywhere else we would go... we ended up in little italy...
~on wendsday morning we went totake a tour of the NBC studios nd i saw where
SNL is filmed (the studios were all tiny) and i met tom brokaw... and then we went to go see moving out (the billy joel musical)in the afternoon... also amazing :-)
~on thrusday we went shopping (FAO schwarts and other stores) then we went to the cloisters museam (its got a bunch of midevial stuff in it) which was very cool... but the subway train we were going to take to get the the MET was broken down so we had to take a tour through harlem and we only had 20 minutes at the MET and i was way toooo tired and sick (dehydration) to see any of the museam :-(
~after the MET we went back to our hotel and then went out to dinner at a place called RUBY FOOs... kinda like pf changs
~on friday we went to the Metropolitian musean of modern art... there were some amazing things there, and i met steve martin there...
~then we went to services at Congregation rodef shalom in manhatan right near central park, i think it might be the oldest reform congregation (maybe)
~then we ate dinner at this really loud and fancy resturant called isabellas
~on saturday we got manicures and stuff then we went to a seder with family friends in brooklyn and it rained a lot that night...
~we left on sunday morning after buying shoes... and we went to another seder that night... we hid the afikomen a bunch of times and one time it was hidden in between the basement and the first floor, it was litterally in the celieng of the basement... they moved the tile to put it up there....

thats my vacation... now its back to school... studying for exams... that start in week... why so early???????? i have nooo clue, it sucks... i have to do my portfolio for NEL board... i have to practice for swimming /c our qualyfing mets are comming up... and i have no time to do it... so im gonna go now and maybe update this weekend :-)

sorry ofr all the spelling errors :-(


4/15/05 09:29 am


4/8/05 03:49 pm

im goin to say something about my love for NEL and all the people in it...

that especially goes to those pittsburgians who are pumped for dance sesh... as lindz tels me! :-) but also everyone who i will se at spring in exactly 1 week!! d dont think i have every been this excited for an event :-)

ps i feel really bad that i have no time to go see suesical this weekend :-( sorry...

love to all :-)

and i must go clean my house fo the prograssive shabbat dinner tonight...
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